How does it feel when the 365 days waterfall is suddenly forced to stop? How does it feel for the falls? How will it control the flow? Or will it control? How does it feel for the kids, trees and birds who have always been enjoying the sound and warmth of the falls?. It certainly is not a great feeling for the falls to stop involuntarily. If this is the case with an object with sans heart, hence sans feelings, how bad is the situation when mapped to homo sapiens (used the biological name here for people to understand the biology and chemistry of human beings). Especially with people who are hypersensitive? What does it mean to be independent? Does it mean, live a life with all things, which can’t understand your feelings? Why shouldn’t we be emotionally dependent on others? After all don’t we all have a heart? What is the point in just using it for your survival? Isn’t being sensitive to others and empathizing with others, part of the purpose of its creation? Why are people who listen to their heart over the mind, branded fools and stupids? Why are they taken for granted? . Isn’t it a nice feeling to be loved and to be missed by someone? Why do people want to hurt the feelings of those so-branded stupids? Why do people want to cheat those who feel life is bliss, not knowing about the sharks ahead? Won’t life be easy on earth without any confusion, disappointment, hatred, bitching and ditching? Don't people understand that the motto of life should be " Live and let live "? Finally, doesn’t it make you feel worse when you are asked by your friend to go to your supposedly someone for consolation when they are the reason? And to top it all, you get a mail from your best friend at this moment, canceling the plans for the weekend, and hence closing the only door that was open. After all nobody wants to cry :). Now will you stop talking and taste the unsual silence?
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Friday, January 4, 2008
Solving the puzzle of life
Human Life - so unpredictable it is. How I wish I know what is in store for me. How I wish I know if my loved ones will be with me always. I just hate this day and this moment. After a long time, I don’t feel like talking to anyone. God was unfair to me and my friends in the morning, when he decided to keep one of my best friends, one of the few honest, straight forward and caring person in the world with him. At this moment, in the top my mind am feeling selfish, when I just think that I can never find such a selfless friend again. There are a thousand questions running on my mind, I don’t know the answer for those. I don’t know whom to ask this to. May be am not lucky enough like Mitch as I haven’t found my Morrie yet. Firstly I feel like crying out loud, shout at God, fight with him, I feel like being ditched by him for the nth time. I feel like being stupid, not able to do anything to change the situation. I feel like being marooned in an island. I feel like a lone kid lost in the crowd. Of the thousand questions the first one that pops up is - Why does God never want me to be happy for a while in my life. But when I type this I have another question. Then follows the next which is, Will I not be happy just because Raka is not there anymore?
My usually confused mind is all the more confounded now, not knowing how to take this. Then I slowly start analyzing life. Though I realize it is as silly as the dream of a kutti kid to reach the sky, am still deep into the thought process, thinking about life. What is life all about? There was this beautiful forward that kid sent me today. It was excellent. It said that, It is the people whom you love and , the people who make a difference in your life that matters and not the world's richest person or the most intelligent person. I liked it a lot. I generally like many people. I have always felt lucky and thankful to God lucky to have met only nice people in my life. I don’t know how to take life? Everyone tells me that am bad at taking decisions and that am not serious about life and that there is no plan about my future. But how does that matter when I am not even sure about my life next moment. Raka was very ambitious, he had a perfect plan in his life. But now it is absolutely of no use. I wasn’t ambitious, but I guess my life is ok.
So, considering all this I have decided to stick on to my sole aim in life, that is to see the crescent in the face of everyone around me. Am gifted by God, compared to so many others. And I feel am gifted only to gift others. I give up solving the puzzle of life, that is too much for me, but I have arrived at a solution. I don’t know if it is correct, but I also don’t want to know, am happy in my world and have decided to live every moment, not worrying about the future.
I think there is not much of a correlation between the paragraphs and lines. That is how it is in life, nothing looks related, but unfortunately when you can understand it we realize they are very much related. May be am getting too philosophical ( unlike me J).
P.S
* My friend Raka was very close to me. He was very honest and spoke straight from the heart. It is only because of this quality that all of us are missing him today and crying for him. We have learnt a lesson at his expense, never give priority to anything in life other than your loved ones. After all end of the day you need someone to miss you, else, no meaning to the thousands you earn.
Infact he was not happy with my second post. He reassured that am not alone and that I have many fiends like him who still love me. Miss you Raka. Nobody to irritate me and fight with me now. Cant you come back? Keep up your promise to talk to me everyday pls. The feeling that he is no more has not sunk in yet for me. I still feel I can talk to him. So, I am just being normal. I am feeling guilty about it. Should I?
My usually confused mind is all the more confounded now, not knowing how to take this. Then I slowly start analyzing life. Though I realize it is as silly as the dream of a kutti kid to reach the sky, am still deep into the thought process, thinking about life. What is life all about? There was this beautiful forward that kid sent me today. It was excellent. It said that, It is the people whom you love and , the people who make a difference in your life that matters and not the world's richest person or the most intelligent person. I liked it a lot. I generally like many people. I have always felt lucky and thankful to God lucky to have met only nice people in my life. I don’t know how to take life? Everyone tells me that am bad at taking decisions and that am not serious about life and that there is no plan about my future. But how does that matter when I am not even sure about my life next moment. Raka was very ambitious, he had a perfect plan in his life. But now it is absolutely of no use. I wasn’t ambitious, but I guess my life is ok.
So, considering all this I have decided to stick on to my sole aim in life, that is to see the crescent in the face of everyone around me. Am gifted by God, compared to so many others. And I feel am gifted only to gift others. I give up solving the puzzle of life, that is too much for me, but I have arrived at a solution. I don’t know if it is correct, but I also don’t want to know, am happy in my world and have decided to live every moment, not worrying about the future.
I think there is not much of a correlation between the paragraphs and lines. That is how it is in life, nothing looks related, but unfortunately when you can understand it we realize they are very much related. May be am getting too philosophical ( unlike me J).
P.S
* My friend Raka was very close to me. He was very honest and spoke straight from the heart. It is only because of this quality that all of us are missing him today and crying for him. We have learnt a lesson at his expense, never give priority to anything in life other than your loved ones. After all end of the day you need someone to miss you, else, no meaning to the thousands you earn.
Infact he was not happy with my second post. He reassured that am not alone and that I have many fiends like him who still love me. Miss you Raka. Nobody to irritate me and fight with me now. Cant you come back? Keep up your promise to talk to me everyday pls. The feeling that he is no more has not sunk in yet for me. I still feel I can talk to him. So, I am just being normal. I am feeling guilty about it. Should I?
* I read this book "Tuesdays with Morrie" which teaches you the lesson of life. A good read in the recent past.
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